When will people understand? When will people see that I’ve put them before me so many times? How can they say that there’s no one worth fighting for? Am I not enough? Am I not worthy? I hid my tears and my pain to make sure they’re okay. I brush aside an er visit to make sure Dylan doesn’t give up. And what do I get? Nothing. No one said, “oh my god, are you all right? Do you need anything?”
Why must I suffer so much in silence when all I want is to be loved? I thought James would be constant now. But, I’ve barely heard from him all week. I’m scared that I’m losing him again… I just want to be told that I’m worth loving. That I’m allowed to be selfish for once.
But in the end, who gives a damn about me. No one. No one. Why? They’re too self-involved to see that I need love, too. One day they’ll turn around, needing support and realize that I’m not there… But, how much longer will that be? how much longer can I hold out and be selfless?
Someone just tell me that I’m worth something. That I’m worth loving and living for. that’s all I want… Please… before -I- give up…